Hi, everybody.  I haven't abandoned you, I've just underestimated the effects of my hormone therapy - notably that zero testosterone also feels like zero energy. You add that to a someone who is accustomed to keeping an 'up-tempo' pace, and you've got a recipe for disappointment.

Sooo...  after flying high for a week or so, riding the bike with Charlie, visiting April, Stella, and the newly-employed Grant, then driving 230 miles to teach a night class (Oooh, sorry.  I may have neglected to tell you I'm teaching my last UOP class for the foreseeable future.  I promise. For real. I have to pay off my IRS bill and I'll be good to go...), I pretty much hit the wall yesterday.  In the depths of my pity-party, I even started thinking of all the reasons I couldn't be in a relationship with Charlie. Thankfully, she's smarter than me, and she set me straight on my fallacious logic.

Thank you, Charlie.

Back to the depleted testosterone... There are two very unfortunate side effects associated with Androgen Depletion Therapy: One is a lack of sexual vigor, which can (and is, in my case) treated to a certain extent with Cialis or other ED treatments. The other may be far worse... The hot/cold mood swings produced within my internal thermostat are making me a sweater-peeling, sleeve-rolling, tie-loosening, face-fanning sideshow at work. Yesterday, my co-workers were guessing the over/under on the number of times that I took my sweater off...  Yes, I love my co-workers.

So, I'm off to bed with a more hopeful outlook and a firmer resolve to get back on track for surgery prep. I've got to get some more exercise and JUICE MORE.

In the meantime, sleep helps all.

Good night from me. Now, from Gustavo... Gustavo was possessed of perhaps the best head of hair I have ever seen...

"Mr. P!! :)

You are the definitely the best teacher I've EVER HAD!! You're so cool and I love how you truly be yourself to everyone you know. Because of you, I be my true self even more. I know you have been through some difficult times... The best advice I can give you that has helped my life is three words, NEVER GIVE IN. Never give in to the bullshit and criticism of society, always be yourself. Mr. P, thank you for making me feel welcomed and wanted in your class the whole school year... Mr. P, I will truly miss having your class. Have the best life you can have, and be the happiest you can possibly be!!"

Why is it that every time I need a quote to lift me up, I find just the right one when I'm researching my blog affirmations...

Karma is cool.