Hello, newer readers:  Regular readers suggest that the best way to read this blog is from the inception in September of 2012.  Ultimately, it's your call, of course.  In my mind, the blog is about a journey, one that I initially equated to the physical act of circumnavigating the US on the Harley.  How wrong I was...

Two things I suck at:  1. Shopping.  2. Preparing nutritious meals.  This needs to change immediately.

Shit, I swear.  I just started typing and you’d think that the most pressing issue in my life is venting about my shortcomings…  I gotta be the greatest procrastinator in the history of “Why do it today, if you can put it off until tomorrow?” What’s that you say?  You’ve become inured to my self-deprecating humor?  I suppose, but I’m in a bad place at present.  I need to get this out. 

I wrote recently of my fear of returning to the classroom in the fall.  Okay, this is 100% true.  No bullshit.  In the short term, however, it simply comes down to this:  Finish the dissertation equals huge uplift in my outlook on life.  Failure to finish has consequences equally impactful on my life’s arc; only this time I’m talking about devastation.  Psyche shattered.  If I were a poker player of any ability, I’d be announcing, “I’m all in!”  You see, folks, this dissertation and the EdD are the culmination of a lifetime of underachievement.  Of course, this refrain is probably familiar to regular readers, as well…

So be it.

The 600 pound gorilla who sits on my chest when I lay down each night is squarely in the center of the room.   It’s put up or shut up time.  I’ve been known to be pretty hard on myself for minor fuck-ups, social blunders, overspending, and occasional over-partying.  Can you imagine the wrath I could bring to bear upon myself for failure to complete this assignment?  I mean, what the hell?  Do I have the ability to complete this task?  Hell, yes, I do.

Re: Blog Frequency -  I visited you some time ago.  I really do need to increase my discipline (duh) and blog daily.   

I hope to get in the routine.

I’d like to go out on a positive note, though.  I had an incredible week, capped off by baby-sitting my dear, sweet Stella.  I forgot how much energy that takes!!!!!  When I returned to the high desert from four full days on the road, I was a trifle worn out… 

Today, I suffered a little setback in momentum, but tomorrow is a brand new day.  Hope to see you all back here then…