I just realized something here.  I'm in a bit of a catch-22 regarding this blog.  As I've stated before, I feed off the energy that comes from 'page views' and 'comments' here on the blog.  Last weekend, more people than ever read more pages, subsequently, I was posting feverishly - spending as much as 3 hours writing and editing posts.  I am not sure spending 3 hours per night writing and editing is the be best use of my limited energy bucket.  This weekend, page views were only one-third what they were last weekend.  I can only assume that people read an entry or two, then decided not to come back.  Not exactly confidence-building.

Added to these facts is the disappointing response I got on my call for help.  I was hoping to get some creative ideas and leads from that request, but the response was underwhelming - and demoralizing.  (Thank you to the three people who did share my blog link on Facebook.)

In the face of these facts, I'm going to retrench and seek the energy and motivation needed to continue. In honor of the other prostate cancer sufferers who may be reading these posts, I will be entering one more post tonight regarding pre-operative procedures.  I will continue to post regarding my disease, but the entries may be a touch on the 'dry' side until my muse returns.

Comments like the following certainly do help, but they are far too often trumped by silence.

"[I read your blog] everyday, first thing when I get to work, usually puts a smile on my face because I can go back and actually see you talking to me like you used to. Not happy about the journey you now face, but somehow deep in my gut I know the outcome is positive.  It sure seems as if you have great support, which is key. Myself, I don't know how you live in the desert all by yourself, but your blog put it a little into perspective, I guess???"

Be well.