I think homelessness is starting to become more tangible for me. Riding the bike, being in the wind, sleeping on the hard ground, visiting people I love - these are all positive experiences. It's easy to be in the moment and appreciate that I'm doing something that most will never have the opportunity to do. I promise you, I get that, but at the end of the day I've got to rebuild my life. And who wants to be rebuilding (again) at my age?
I'm tired and frustrated and afraid I may not be up to the challenge...
I'm just trying to enter a post from my phone. All I wanted to say is that I'm really f-ing depressed.
ReplyDeleteI can't begin to tell you why.
I know it's probably not what you want to hear. I try to stay upbeat and positive, even when I'm discussing my low points.
But this is me, too.
I've been thinking about this...
ReplyDeleteI think homelessness is starting to become more tangible for me. Riding the bike, being in the wind, sleeping on the hard ground, visiting people I love - these are all positive experiences. It's easy to be in the moment and appreciate that I'm doing something that most will never have the opportunity to do. I promise you, I get that, but at the end of the day I've got to rebuild my life. And who wants to be rebuilding (again) at my age?
I'm tired and frustrated and afraid I may not be up to the challenge...